Archive for May, 2008

Thoughts of Las Vegas

Wednesday, May 28th, 2008

It was 2:00 a.m. when John hit “send” on his computer. An image of his e-mail flying out into cyberspace came up in his mind, evoking a small grin. His mind kept looking at this image, noticing what thoughts accompanied it.

‘Cyberspace looks the same in my mind as the idea that there is only “One Mind,” he noticed. ‘My e-mail is like my voice in the “One Mind” – what I am thinking or saying resonating not only with those I happen to include in the address line of the e-mail, but also with all “parts” of the collective consciousness. It is as though what I say and do and think becomes part of the “all of it.”’

The next image that arose was of the Earth, turning slowly, and his e-mailed thoughts spreading out across the space around the Earth – the Earth turning towards his thoughts, absorbing them into the collective, and making them accessible to anyone who happened to be on the same wavelength. ‘It is already 5:00 a.m. on the East Coast,’ he continued the line of thought, ‘and people are waking up and maybe reading their e-mails’ Another image, a morphing of the previous one, looked like lights coming on as the Earth turned – first on the East Coast, and then following the great revolution of the planet, lights blinking on in the Midwest, and then the Plains, the Mountains, and finally the West Coast, where John sat in Las Vegas, in what seemed to be a particular time and place. ‘Yet somehow what I am thinking and saying and doing is spreading out across the entire consciousness – and not just in the United States, either.’

Again, the image in John’s mind morphed – becoming an image of the Earth with lines of light connecting dots of lights – each point of light (“A thousand points of light” – smile) representing a mind, an awareness. The lines of light looked like an airline route map, but with many more destinations. “Fiber optic communication lines” came as a thought in John’s awareness. ‘The lines of light are connecting all thoughts, everywhere. All communication is simultaneous. That is why someone in Timbuktu can have the same idea that I am having at the same time in a different place. It is all just thought in the One Mind!’ Even in his mind, this thought carried an exclamation point. It was like a revelation – a light coming on in his mind. This thought, too, evoked a smile in John’s mind, even though the smile wasn’t actually on his face. ‘As I light up in my mind, I become part of the light of the planet, the “Light of the World!”’ Again, a smile. ‘My thoughts, my words, my voice – where I hold my attention or awareness – may just be affecting the One Awareness of the planet. In effect, my story becomes part of “The Story” – lighting up some part of the One Mind, carrying a vibration of thought and light with it, spreading out across the Mind as the world turns in its sleep – ever turning towards the Light.’

The smile was evident on his face now, as John rolled these thoughts in his mind, continuing to look at them in his mind’s eye, watching the lines of light coursing with energy and vibration as they carried awareness to awareness, as ideas went from one bright city to another. ‘What message is being sent from the light of Las Vegas?’ This thought took the smile from John’s face, as he realized that in some way he represented the light of Las Vegas. It was sobering to think that his own thoughts could have an effect on thoughts everywhere – that what he looked at – what he gave attention and awareness to was somehow reflected in all awareness. ‘Too much responsibility, there.’ John tried to blank his mind, to find a peaceful place in it, a place of quiet and solitude. There was some small peace to be found in the stillness of his mind, but the idea of “solitude” wouldn’t take hold – immediately he saw the stillness in his mind radiating out across the planet. Then he noticed that the feeling of “smileness” had returned of its own accord, connected somehow with the idea of “stillness” of the mind. ‘I am at choice in what I look at, but not necessarily at choice in the effects of any thought I hold.’ The stillness in John’s mind was being disturbed by new thoughts, like pebbles being dropped into still water, the ripples radiating out from the source of thought. ‘My purpose in this life is to radiate peace and joy and love.’ This was a large pebble, but it didn’t splash into the surface of his mind so much as it seemed to come up from the depths of the pool, breaking to the surface of awareness like a bubble, then “popping” to release its energy, the energy of an idea riding out across the ripples of thought in John’s mind, in the One Mind.

Smiling, John turned to look once again at the keyboard of the laptop computer on the table. ‘Every letter is just a symbol of an idea in my mind, rising to the surface to be shaped, type-cast, imagined – an image of thought rising like feeling from some unknown source. ‘I am a conduit,’ John thought, ‘a channel of awareness, allowing the Source of What IS to flow through me, shaping it as it flows, making “sense” of it – energy becoming sensation – sensation becoming thought – thought becoming word, ‘and the Word was made flesh.’ “Smileness” was rising again. The idea of “responsibility” for his choice of thought brought not retraction this time but instead a sense of expansion, of desiring to join with the “All of it” – to acknowledge being part of the One, giving “smileness” by his very noticing of the idea – spreading the idea by his expression of it in his experience. ‘And it IS good!’

Peace of mind returned unannounced. John sat quietly in the dark, unaware of the time, no longer concerned with that concept, unaware even of the turning of the Earth. He was at peace in the world. His hand reached up and pulled the laptop screen down, closing the computer. He didn’t need it at this moment – he was communicating his message without using words. ‘I am the message,’ John smiled, ‘and I am the messenger. The message and the messenger are One.’

He rose from the table, then, and walked to his bed, knowing that he would dream, and that his dream would connect him to every dream being dreamed.

“Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.” ~William Jennings Bryan

 

Las Vegas Weather

Friday, May 9th, 2008

“Love Ya’, Man!” John punctuated the end of the conversation. He noticed that he liked to end every conversation on a light note – often in laughter – but always in at least minor happiness.

            “You ain’t getting my Bud Light!”

            The response was a typical one, given in the same manner as John’s farewell – casual acknowledgement that carried some small token of respect while not crossing any boundaries in the mind. ‘Funny,’ John thought, ‘that it appears that most of the characters in my life actually shy away from saying anything meaningful about any relationship, but I suppose that is a reflection of my own indifference, or maybe it is just a reflection of the mind’s inability to express that which it doesn’t fully understand, anyway.’  John had often thought that his entire world was somehow a reflection of his intention for it – every conversation a mirror of what he held in his awareness – so any ‘boundaries’ must actually be in his own mind, and any ‘crossing the line’ would necessarily be the very lines that he drew. ‘How could it be any other way?’ John mused. ‘It is, after all, always my own interpretation of what I am hearing from the characters in my dream, and even what I hear coming from my own character in my own dream.

            “You’d give it to me if I asked for it!” John called out to the retreating back. He smiled. ‘What am I really asking for? Is the “I love you” a solicitation of approval from ‘outside?’ Maybe I am just attempting to push the lines in my mind around a bit, to loosen them so that I can loosen up my character – to risk going where I haven’t gone before – to undo my limited experience of what “love” means. I suppose expressions of “love” on a construction site necessarily have to be limited by the environment. There are certainly some lines that I have no desire to cross! But is “love” to be limited by the very perception of an environment?’

            The phone rang. John picked it up absently, “John, here.”

            “How’s the weather in Vegas? This is Catherine, of Indios, Inc.”

            “It’s beautiful, here, Catherine! Blue skies, bright sunshine, a light breeze – and how about in your neck of the woods?” John noticed that his description of ‘beautiful’ was predicated by the environment in his mind as much as by any ‘actual’ meteorological considerations.

            “Same, here. Maybe spring really has sprung?”

            “And it’s about time! I love it!” John smiled at his introduction of the word, once again. “How can I be of service to you?”

            “I was calling to verify the shipping address.”

            “One Zero One Zero Eight Desert Lane, Las Vegas, Eight Nine One Two Two. Send it to my attention. What am I getting?”

            “It’s the Operation and Maintenance manuals that were requested.”

            “Ah, yes, we’ve got to have the operating manual so we know what we’re starting up!” John laughed lightly at the obtuse inference to something other than a ‘How To’ manual for a submersible sump pump. “Do you have any O&M’s for life?”

            “Hardly. But I wish I did.”

            “You mean I have to keep making it up as I go along? This is getting really old!” John laughed, again – partly at the truth behind his statement, partly at his own cleverness in turning something simple into a reason to laugh, partly at the acknowledgement that he was once again “crossing the lines” of “normal.” The voice on the other end laughed with him.

            “Wouldn’t it be nice if there were a manual for life? It’d sure make things easier!”

            “Ah, that would take all the fun out of it! Then how would we keep our mind busy?”

            “Oh, I could think of other ways to stay busy.”

            “I suppose we all could! Meanwhile, let’s pretend that we already DO have the manual, that it’s imbedded inside us somewhere, just waiting for us to open the book and start reading!” John couldn’t help smiling at this idea in his mind, at his expressing this idea seemingly for himself, as some sort of reminder that there was an element of truth in it, and, of course, because, once again, he had pushed the lines of ‘typical conversation’ across some imaginary boundary towards an exchange of an idea that truly might serve them both. Then his cell phone rang.

            “Hey, gotta; go – another line is ringing! Can’t wait to read the manual of life that you’re sending! Love ya’!”

            “Nice talking to you.”

            “Call me anytime, and we’ll compare notes! Bye!”

            John hung up the land line, and reached for his cell on the desk.

            “Yello, this is John, how’s the weather there?” In John’s mind, a tune from the past started playing. ‘Everywhere I go, I always take the weather, I take the weather with me…’